Paradise

"Where's your paradise?"

Mine is where everything is in harmony. Where the suns shine at their brightest but not burning anything. Where there's the sea and it's the only thing I hear. Where I can feel the wind caressing my exhausted soul.

Away from the world and its expectations.

Her

There are times when she just pops into my head.

I don't know her personally and she doesn't know me, too. But she's very significant.

She has the power to awaken my anxiety within a second. Her existence is something that makes me question, "How worthy am I in this world?"

It's just unfair, you know.

Everytime I see my favorite candy, I see her. Everytime he talks about the past I see her. Like everything is connected to her and I have no power and right to disconnect him from her.

What's more powerful than this so-called, "first love"?

She's his first love.

She's someone I will never be.

Desperation 101

To be honest, I really thought that finding a job is easy, that some people exaggerate. Goodness me, I. SHOULD'VE. BELIEVED. THEM.

I applied to about 30 companies now. Only few of them respondended. Only ONE invited me for an interview.

Where is the "Kaye" they believe in? I can't seem to find her. Right now, all I can see is a "Kaye" with no potential and just a desperate job seeker.

And then there's this awesome batchmate of mine who landed as an Executive Assistant. She posted something inspirational, it goes like this: you being a fresh grad doesn't mean you can't achieve something big.

And there goes my uneasiness again.

Wish me luck on my interview this Tuesday.


Here's a line that ends this post:
Although, I'm not great, I believe He has great plans for me.